I don’t even know what or how to think anymore.

I picked up the cell phone.
Messages greeting me.
It all falls in the same pattern.
There’s no surprise to that.
You can’t get past that pain.

That’s why I choose to deny.

I can’t let my guard down
Cause every time I seem to try
It backlashes at me.
Hitting harder than before.

These wounds will never heal.
Cause it keeps getting hurt.
I want to learn to trust. but
I can’t let my guard down.

I can’t seem to find the right words.
The conflicts in my head.
I wanna get over this matter
It just doesn’t seem to end
I can’t get past the pain.

That’s why I choose to deny.

I can’t let my guard down
Cause every time I seem to try
It backlashes at me.
Hitting harder than before.

These wounds will never heal.
Cause it keeps getting hurt.
I want to learn to trust.
but I can’t let my guard down.

Inside me.
I feel the truth.
I’m denying.
The facts.

I can’t let my guard down.
I am hurting deep inside.
Why can’t you hear me scream?
I am torn up inside.

Well, I have given up trying.
cause I’ve ran out of strength.
I want to learn to trust.
but I can’t let my guard down.