Monday, November 30, 2009

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Dreaming makes you feel even more tired than you were before.
I hate waking up after a long dream.
Especially a nightmare, but in which I complete a job that I was supposed to do.
I hate the realizing-it-was-just-a-dream part of waking up.

I had a short nightmare during the last 10 minutes of Bio 3 today.
I dreamt I woke up in my dream during Bio 3.
To realize I have yet to answer my paper and time was up.
I woke up as I heard someone drop their bottle.
I felt even more tired than before.

I keep having these dreams about SPM.
Reoccurring ones sometimes.
They are so vivid I feel like I am living it.
Which is why I feel even more tired when I am awake.

I took an entire cup of coffee [extra sweet, mind you] and fell asleep 10 minutes later.
I think I need sleeping pills. I’m going crazy.

Sunday, November 29, 2009

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This will be a long post filled with words and only words. If you have the time, try reading it. People say, things often have many sides to it. So it really depends on how you look at it and from which point you’re looking at it.

Got this off an email.

One day, while a blind man was crossing the street, a truck ran him down. In the midst of everything, the blind man’s dog got sacrificed as well as he wanted to protect his owner.

The dog and his owner both arrived at the heaven’s gates.

An angel stopped them a they were about to walk through the doors, awkwardly he said : “There’s only one place left in heaven and only one of you can enter. The other however has to be sent to hell.”

Upon hearing this, the blind man said : “My dog does not know the meaning of heaven, let me make the decision.”

The angel gave the owner a weird stare, frowned and replied : “Every being has to be treated equally. I’m afraid you can’t do so. You will have to go through a contest top determine who gets to be chosen.”

Disappointed, the owner asked, “What kind of competition?”

Angel said, “You will have to race. The one who gets to the gates first gets to enter heaven. You don’t have to worry as your eye sight have been restored and you’ll be able to compete fairly. The one with the purest heart has the fastest speed.”

After thinking for a while, the guy nodded his head.

When the angel announced the competition has began, she thought the owner was going to run with everything he’s got in order to get into heaven. Instead of doing so, he took his time and walked in a very slow pace. Upon seeing it’s owner doing so, the dog also followed suit and walked beside the owner.

The angel suddenly thought, how deceitful of him. The dog have been trained for years to follow in suit with the owner and the owner is now using that fact against the dog. All he has to do now is to ask the dog to stop before going through the gates and the owner will be the winner.

The angel said to dog angrily, “You’ve already served him for many years and now that he is no longer blind, you don’t have to walk with him any more. Just run towards the heaven’s gates.” but the dog just ignored her.

The angel stood there and stared at the dog. The owner asked the dog to sit as he upon reaching the heaven’s gates.

The angel was prepared to see the owner walk through the gates by himself.

The owner turned around and looked at the angel and smiled, “I finally sent him to the heaven’s gate. I was worried that he wouldn’t want to enter it and wanted to follow me wherever I went… that’s why I wanted to decide for him… “

The angel was speechless.

The owner continued, “Using this way is the best way ever, I just have to let him take a few steps forward then he can enter heaven. Though he has served me so many years, this is the first time I get to see him. I couldn’t help but walked really slowly so I could see him for awhile longer. If I could, I would want to look after him for the rest of my life but heaven is where he belongs to. Please take care of him.”

After saying all these, the owner commanded the dog to move forward. As soon as the dog’s feet passed the heaven’s gates. His owner disappeared like a feather into hell. The dog turned around and saw the owner falling into the depths of hell and ran after him.

The angle tried to catch the dog but because the dog’s heart was so pure, his speed was so fast that the angel could not catch up.

The dog followed the owner to hell, even in hell, he willingly served his owner.

The angel repented and said, “I was wrong since the very start, they were together as one and nothing could have ever separated them..”

Friday, November 27, 2009

3 subjects, 9 papers.

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Sometimes, I look at your smile. I can’t help but to think about all those things you’ve done.
Sometimes, when I see your name. I feel a pang of pain coursing through me.
Sometimes, I wonder what really happened. Was I just a friend due to convenience?
Sometimes, I don’t know why I believe you. It’s like knowing there’s a hole but I still walk into it.
Sometimes, I don’t get why other things/people are more important even thought they’re hurt you.

Sometimes, I don’t know why I still care…

Just a random update. XD

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All the above are taken by Sue Ann’s Canon G10. XD

Pictures below taken by Canon Ixus 860 IS. XD

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Sister’s best friend.

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Abby with Koko.

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Annoying but cute sister.

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Don’t they look awesome? XD

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With my crazy best friend. XD

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what’re you looking at?

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Just cause I am bored out of my mind from studying,
Nette.

Thursday, November 26, 2009

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You store it into a box.
You keep stuffing things inside.

One day,
The box will be filled to the brim.
You still continue stuffing it.

When it can no longer hold it in,
All the things will come flooding out.

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

I WANT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

taylor

*drools*

Me want!!

 

My aim after SPM.. gonna earn enough money to get it.

Unless someone’s gonna be so kind to me and get it for me as a christmas present. XP
I wouldn’t mind not receiving birthday presents from now on if I get this. XP

Tuesday, November 24, 2009

I like the way you’re everything I’ve ever wanted

BM

ENGLISH

ADD MATHS

MOD MATHS

MORAL

SEJARAH

PHYSICS

CHEMISTRY

BIOLOGY

I’m a happy girl. XD

Monday, November 23, 2009

Tagged

10 RANDOMS

1. I’m a hopeless romantic
     I will fall for anything though however cheesy or tacky they may be. The kind that will forgive the guy if     he’d just stand in the rain a whole night for her. The kind that wants a guy to serenade her with a guitar and a self composed song.

2. I’m a music addict.
    I love music. Any kind of music. I like the way things sound and how words can express the feelings and emotions of someone. I love how I can pen my thoughts down as songs. I love how they sound when they’re being played.

3. I named my teddy bear Alison.
    Just cause that’s Taylor Swift’s middle name.

4. I started playing the guitar because I wanted to play Taylor Swift’s songs.
     Honestly, I can only play her songs on the guitar.. Though I played some other songs but my chords file consists of mostly her songs. XD

5. I secretly like to listen to people’s problems.
     It gives me inspirations for songs and stories. Also, I like feeling like a friend.

6. I cry at almost any film that has romance in it.
     I cried while watching HSM 2 and 3 because it was saddening. I cried watching PS I LOVE YOU. I just think it’s damn sad whenever the love is broken or mended or lost or forgotten or found. XD

7. I LOVE watching cartoons and animated films.
    I will be that person in the group who would vote to watch a christmas carol then New Moon because I’m that kind of girl.

8. I do not like to shop for clothes.
    Instead I love spending time and money on books of sorts.

9. I collect nice wrapping papers.
     I can spend 20 bucks or more just buying fancy looking good quality wrapping paper just cause I like it. Also, they make really good use when I’m making birthday cards for friends. XD

10. I love buying heels but I don’t wear them.
      I cannot resist a nice looking pair of heels especially when they look good on my feet. The only catch is I don’t ever find myself needing to wear them.. and they’re painful to wear. But they are so darn nice… XP

 

you’re tag because you’re cool that way,
Briana, Melinda, AlvinKei, Shuana, Tan Ying

Friday, November 20, 2009

Beauty

Through this mask that hides my face, I can still see the world in it's vibrant colours. The beauty of it all never cease to amaze me. I long to feel the touch of the wind upon my cheeks. Is beauty only skin deep? What defines beauty?

Beauty is confidence. Beauty is life. Beauty is waking up in the morning and watching the sun rise up from the horizon. Patches of lavender during spring. Orchards in their season. Beauty is nature. Nature is beauty.

Sadly, mankind has taken all that for granted. To them, beauty is the size zero model on the cover of magazines. Beauty is like diamond rings. Beauty means spending countless on cosmetic surgery to remove every sign of aging.

I too once was like that. Treating beauty like a material possession. I was obsessed with it. Now, all I yearn is to remove the mask upon my face but I can't. The scarred face that lies beneath would disgust anyone who sees it.

Never judge a book by it's cover claims many. Without an interesting cover, a reader would never pick the book up. That's why authors and publisher spend so much time on choosing their cover art. With an attention capturing cover, readers will not pick up the book and will never know the story within.

I can still remember that day very clearly. As usual after a long day of work, with all the busy photo shoot schedule, I was relief to finally to be home. As I made my way across the street, a ragged dressed man came walking toward me with a cup in his hand. He splashed what I thought was coffee onto my face. It burnt every inch of my skin.

The doctors tried everything they could to restore my face. They gave up hope on me and told me to do the same. I couldn't. I searched throughout the world to find someone who could save me from this ordeal. I was determined to have my face back.

A young surgeon offered to give it a go. I was more than happy when I heard the news. Once again, I went under the knife. He told me he succeeded. I went through a long week of healing before being able to see my face. As they removed my bandage, a mirror was thrust into my hands. He was right, he had succeeded but I felt that I failed myself.

Every time I look into the mirror I see my used to be scarred face. What is beauty if human can play god and give beauty to anyone who wanted it? I was disgusted by the flawless mask that is now my face. Compliments like "you're pretty" and "you look beautiful" no longer please me. Every single word pierces through my heart like needles.

I have reached a point of no return. A mask upon my face that I have to live with for the rest of my life. A mask I cannot remove no matter how hard I try. He reaches out for my cheek. His warm fingertips rest upon my cheeks as I felt my mask melt away as he sees me for who I really am.

I look into his milky white eyes. Maybe this is the only way out.

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

Untouchable;

Untouchable like a distant diamond sky
I'm reaching out and I just can't tell you why
I'm caught up in you I'm caught up in you

Untouchable burning brighter than the sun
And when you're close I feel like coming undone

In the middle of the night when I'm in this dream
It's like a million little stars spelling out your name
You gotta come on, come on say that we'll be together
Come on, come on little taste of heaven

It's half full and I won't wait here
All day I know you're saying that you'd be here anyway
But you’re

Untouchable burning brighter than the sun
And when you're close I feel like coming undone

Sunday, November 15, 2009

Study Session with Bree and Mel-a

So we headed over to McDs to study.. they went there earlier and I joined them only after add maths class. Pictures time! XD

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SO prettty..

 

 

 

Okay.. gonna go back to studying now..

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toodles.